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That too.

Okay so--

Miss Gales...

[That's a start!]

Why... don't we start with you're sorry. And then... that you miss her.

[Okay but how to do that.]

...okay. Try telling me what you'd like to say to her... if you could right now.

Uhhh.

[WHAT IS HE GETTING INTO HERE.... He's flustered, but you know what. Yoosung can be really cute when he wants to be, and this guy seems fickle, so.]

We-Well, I do think you're pretty cute! Do you get here faster if there's kisses waiting?

Well, they're right. And about the peace and quiet thing, too.

You e been working too damn hard. When was the last time you took some time just for yourself?

Uhm... alright. It's kind of a lot, so I hope you don't mind listenin' to me ramble a little bit.

[2-D takes a deep breath, closing his eyes for a moment as he thinks.]

Miss Gales... I'm sorry for.. No, that's a rubbish start. Sorry for what? Killing a young girl? As if saying "sorry" will magically make it better?

[He sighs, a little frustrated but starts over.]

There's a lot of stuff I want to say, but I don't know where to start. I want to tell you that.. that I miss you, but I know that's probably the last thing you want to hear from me. But it's the truth. I.. I miss drinkin' tea with you, and-- and there's so much stuff we never got to tell each other. I wanted to hear more about your friends and your job.. what's being a teacher like? Is it fun? It sounds like it'd be a blast and--- Oh, I'm getting off topic.

[The musican shakes his head, sitting up a bit more to try and focus.]

I wanted to apologize 'cos of what I did, but mostly 'cos of what I said. The last thing I told you was... stupid. I wasn't thinking and I know I usually say a lot of stupid stuff but I can't stop thinking about it. I.. I didn't mean to make you feel like I took away such a bright, and caring life just 'cos I wanted to talk to you again. It's not your fault, and even though that was something on my mind it wasn't... i-it didn't make me do it. I just felt so useless when you were in so much pain over Ash's jacket and all I could do was sit there like a bloody dumbass. I wanted to help you better than I did and it hurt. A lot. To just sit there helplessly while you cried.

But it wasn't why I did such a horrid thing... I'll admit that you're really important to me, and I.. kind of took a liking to you but I didn't do it for you. You had nothin' to do with it. I was just an idiot, and a coward, and I was scared someone else was gonna take my place in Gorillaz. And I was gonna end up a useless, deaf moron livin' on the streets with nothing to do with myself anymore. I didn't want to lose music.. 'cos it's all I really have.

But it wasn't fair for me to take it out on poor Maya or on anyone else but myself, for that matter. And now that I've been given a second chance I'm trying to do all that I can to make it up to her. And to you. And Osomatsu. And.. everyone. And I'm so sorry that I did such an awful, terrible thing. I truly didn't know what I was doing.. and I'm.. I'm scared.

[...without realizing it, his eyes have started to glaze over with tears. His voice trembling a little bit.]

I'm scared of myself, Rebecca. I don't.. I don't want to become like Murdoc. I don't want to be like someone who-- wh-who ran me over with a car and laughed about it! I-I want to be a good person.. I...

...

[She doesn't talk, she barely moves as he keeps speaking. She would have loved to keep swinging her fists at him, but all of a sudden the strength in her limbs started to wane, until they were simply hanging limp at her sides.]

...Just because you can't do something anymore doesn't mean you should give up on your life. That's... that's...

[Kind of like her, and that particular thought linger far longer than she'd like it to. Long enough that she pushes herself off of 2D, giving him an opportunity to get away if he really wishes to.]

I've felt useless too, and sometimes I thought maybe I would be better off not being around anyone, but that didn't mean I wanted to hurt anybody. Sure, I-I don't have a lot of other talents besides channeling, but wanting to die over not being able to do something is...

[She sounds slightly bewildered, and more importantly, still frustrated. But, at what?]

[When Maya finally gets off of him, 2-D does consider running for a moment. Just getting up and leaving and never bothering her again but.. that doesn't feel right. Not at all, especially with her having something to say even though she can't seem to place her finger on what it is exactly.]

......it's bloody stupid, I know.

[He says that very quietly, looking off to the side with his brow furrowed.]

I just.. never had anything goin' for me before I joined Gorillaz. I was tryin' to get a lawyer's degree but then I got all messed up in a couple of accidents and I couldn't.. I-I don't think as well as I used to. So all that lawyer stuff got really confusin' and when the band started taking off I felt like I actually belonged somewhere, you know? The fans wanting my autographs, the press talkin' about how fresh and new our music was, getting my own room full of keyboards and gadgets that made all kinds of neat sounds....

[He sits up a little big, twiddling his thumbs as he talks.]

...I didn't wanna give all that up.

[SUPER full of it... even if he says it's about wanting to kill Grantaire, he still said earlier it's because of what he did... no take backs. Anyway, Yoosung has lost enough now that he might as well take a petty comfort in having a friend who would avenge him.]

Well... if you like revenge that much, I remembered a guy who did a lot of shitty things to me back home, maybe you can take his head off someday.

But thank you. I really appreciate it.... though, I hope you join us and hang out! If that's the case, you might as well just get rid of him cause you'll have me around too often to bother with it.

Haha, me too! It'd really suck if I did all this and it turned out no one could even taste it.

[And Yoosung wasn't even there for the part where someone's tastebuds actually did not work.]

Anyway, it's no problem. Even if we don't actually need to do this... I still want to.

[His nerves are still fried though, so while no one else is around he's just going to pick off the black parts of one of his messed up patties with a spatula and serve that one to himself. He hums thoughtfully as he puts it on the bun.]

....you'd think becoming an AI could have made me perfect some of my skills though. I hope my code doesn't leave me stuck the same way I am now for eternity.

[He is still saying this in a friendly and conversational tone, which might be a bit unsettling, but he's... um, sure trying here.]

I don’t know.

[ at least it’s an honest answer. ]

Maybe I’ll try. I just don’t ...know how.

[ COUGHS... ]

[ Aw, Connor. ]

Well, the pool's still here, or you can try listening to some music or something. I know that sounds kinda stupid, but it beats going into sleep mode in your room, right?

Yeah, I almost spent a week without being able to taste. That was fucking awful.

[ Shit got so real, lord. ]

Uhh... yeah. [ Hank nods. It's true he's trying not to think too hard about it, but Yoosung is clearly trying too. And struggling. ] Well, you know, the thing AIs are known for is their ability to adapt. So you probably don't have to worry about that.

[ It's pretty clear Hank is just saying this though, he's not 100% used to it either. ]

But I mean, hey. Perfect memory if we can figure how to use it. There's probably a whole bunch of shit we just need to find the right line of code for.

[w-what.]

... Too much?

I mean. A little.

[ no he's not blushing don't look at him ]

[are you sure... He's kind of embarrassed now.]

Oops... I'll try to be more careful.

[He should really be more considerate of Yuuki's virgin ears!!]

[ haha.......................... ]

Y-yeah, thanks.

[well now. that stutter (that blush that's not going away) kinda makes him wonder if he got that wrong, but... better to just assume that's the case for now.]

It's ok!

You mean we could just edit ourselves, like a game character?

[He wouldn't mind having maxed stats. It's tempting, but at the same time, he certainly doesn't trust his own skills in doing that.]

I don't really know a lot about AI... one of my good friends from home was able to program them, but I wasn't that interested. The only one I interacted with was his home security AI that used to hassle me whenever I tried to come over, not exactly a friend... but I guess it does seem pretty normal for them to do that here. Be adaptable, I mean.

[He finishes putting toppings on his burger and sits down to take a bite. After chewing on that a bit,]

But I'd have to actually know hacking to figure out any of that code stuff... are you any good at that, or is it just Connor?

Maybe. I don't... I'm not exactly gunning for that, but it'd make sense if we could, at least try something.

[ He shrugs. The burger tastes real enough, so he's not gonna complain. ]

I don't know too much about 'em either, to be honest. AI are just the thing that runs androids back home. So they can get pretty damn advanced.

Connor's our best bet. I could barely get my phone running. Only reason I haven't had any trouble here is because most of the tech was set to a few decades back in my time. If we were all decked out in 2038 shit, I'd be fucked.

[ he hums thoughtfully ]

I think I'd like that.

Yeah, there ya go.

[ Hank smiles softly. ]

Might be a nice thing to try.

...it's okay. You don't... have to be nice to me.

That... doesn't have anything to do with... whether I'll help you or not.

I'm here... because... I'm partly responsible. And... because... I care about what happens to the people that have been brought here.

Even if... what I do... isn't good enough... I just can't stop now. Even if everyone comes to hate me... I won't give up this time.

[ Okay, so there actually hasn't been a lot of strife between victims and killers so far, which, you know, is great!! But also it kind of diminishes one of the core missions of the guild, so they're going to broaden their horizons to include party planning! That's pretty much Yoosung's secondary specialty, after all!

SO! Early in the morning before everything goes to hell, Mishima is going to put up a calendar (i.e. a bunch of Excel spreadsheets made to look like one) outside the office along with some colored gel pens, and a sign: ]

ATTENTION GUILD MEMBERS/POTENTIAL MEMBERS: Please write in your birthdays so we can make sure to celebrate! If you come from a world with a different calendar or don't know when your birthday is, feel free to just pick one out and claim it!

[ It's probably worth noting that YUUKI MISHIMA is already written in in green on September 22, NOT THAT THERE'S AN ULTERIOR MOTIVE HERE OR ANYTHING!!

Feel free to catch him as he's putting this up, or just put in your birthday, or leave written questions/comments! Look, here's an actual calendar to put stuff down on! ]

Edited (i'm making this damn calendar) 2018-09-19 22:20 (UTC)

[That gets a little frown on 2-D's face. "Even if everyone comes to hate me..."]

I'm not bein' nice just 'cos I want you to help me. I'm being nice 'cos you're my friend... yeah? And I don't like seeing my friends beatin' themselves up over uh.. well, anythin', really.

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