R1 DEADLAND

[lockdownmods]

[it’s strange, for the people who were already dead, the shift in scenery is sudden and complete. For those who have just arrived? It’s like you’re back where you left?

How strange.

But if you ever need her, you can always reach out to the guardian of this place.]

LOCATIONS
Note: locations lag a week behind the living counterparts

Comments

[donotlick]

Still busy though, huh?

[ Hank pulls out the little "wanted" posted Connor made. They're pretty charming. ]

Whoever said you guys couldn't get creative didn't know shit.

[childrenofinvention]

So I'm not like. The specialist on what's been going on with you guys but. You're a really blunt and honest guy and I like that but. I have a distinct feeling you've been telling everyone just ooooooone half truth.

You really have two boyfriends, don't you?

[...]

It's okay, if it's a secret, my mouth's shut.

[Wiiiiinks.]

[preconstruction]

I don't know what to say.

[ that's important, because he almost always does know what to say. he's literally programmed for that. but he feels so sad, hearing all of this. hollow, like his insides have been taken out. he is pulled between two horrible choices -- he cannot tell hank that he does not love han, because that would be untrue. but if he tells hank that he loves him, too, then he will be unfaithful to han. they are different kinds of love, as far as he is concerned. but love all the same. what he feels for hank is not as simple as liking him as a friend. being a partner is so much more than that. ]

I'm sorry, I don't -- [ his led runs red for a moment and then stabilizes to yellow. ] I'm not asking you to get over anything.

[preconstruction]

[ this was exactly what he'd been trying to tell people this whole time -- nothing could be a secret when you're part of a computer run by ai. they'd have to know everything that happened. and this was...certainly a thing. that was currently happening, wasn't it?

so while he could protest. while maybe he should protest, he also knows there's no point. it's illogical to do that. so he doesn't. besides, neither of them are human. maybe lucian was best equipped to have this conversation with. ]

I am emotionally close with Lieutenant Anderson, but I haven't had sexual intercourse with him. I wouldn't betray Han like that.

[donotlick]

[ It does help to know Connor doesn't just have easy answers. Their feelings are complicated, even Connor's seem to be, and that... is a weird kind of reassurance. So Connor doesn't want things to change -- that's fair. Hank doesn't want Connor to just dump his boyfriend for him either, that's not it at all. What he wants... he isn't sure of what he wants, either. He wants to hold Connor. He wants to always be there for him, like he knows Connor would be if their positions were reversed.

Hank can't really say much to that. He stays quiet, taking in how much this clearly makes Connor struggle. Human relationships are hard enough on people. For an android, it must be even harder. Hank doesn't want to be one of the things that makes Connor's life even harder, but having a better understanding of where they're at would at least help calm the pit of guilt he gets in his stomach every time Connor smiles at him. ]

I just want you to be happy, Connor.

[preconstruction]

If we knew we would be safe without power, we might be able to hack it ourselves.

[preconstruction]

I want you to be happy, too. I am sorry I have made that so difficult.

[donotlick]

[ Hank steps back up close to Connor, setting a hand on his shoulder. He doesn't want to lose Connor. God knows, he couldn't handle that. They both know they need each other. And really, Hank doesn't know what would make him happy... besides, y'know, Connor smiling at him and flirting at him but without the aforementioned guilt clawing at him for being a cheating old asshole who's taking advantage of someone's boyfriend.

But it's not like that, is it? Maybe? He should get over this. Even if Connor isn't asking, Hank should know better. He can't keep putting the blame on Connor like this. ]

It's not your fault. Us humans have a way of making feelings and shit really fucking complicated, alright?

[preconstruction]

I think I have made it complicated, too. I'm sorry, I'll stop putting you in this position.

[ stop flirting with him. stop teasing him. ]

You shouldn't have to feel like you're doing something wrong.

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[donotlick]

[ Let's honestly just assume Hank is at every one of these "free food" events because he knows what he's about. Hank is there for crepes if anyone wants to bother him, but he's gonna hit up the birthday party because cake!! This cake looks weird as hell but Hank loves fruity shit so once he takes a bite and gets that familiar taste of grape fanta he's...... actually totally happy. ]

Shit, this is good.

[ Gross!!! Make pineapple next time and he'll lose it. ]

Guess we're doing the birthday thing, huh? Happy birthday, kid.

[donotlick]

[ Flirting is ok!! The teasing is... where it starts to hurt, Connor. ]

It's okay. I know it's your first time dealing with this stuff. I shouldn't take it so personally.

[ Connor just flirts with everyone, there's no reason to think he's special? No, shut up, Hank those are bad thoughts. ]

It's... I know what we have is different. [ From what Connor has with Han, he means. ] You and me have always been close. You don't have to change anything about yourself for my sake, Connor.

[preconstruction]

[ consider the teasing is part of the flirting for him. ]

But I don't like seeing you hurt like this.

[preconstruction]

Good busy.

[ but he smiles when hank pulls out one of his posters. ah yes. ]

Do you like it?

[donotlick]

[ See, that's what Hank needs to get. God, Hank. ]

Think I said this before, Connor, but you can't hurt me any way I haven't been hurt before. It's alright. I'll get over it.

[ yeah, how did that conversation go, Hank?? ]

[donotlick]

It's fucking great.

[ Hank chuckles. Of course he loves them, I made them!! He better!!! ]

You really captured his evil essence.

[childrenofinvention]

Ahahahaha— “it’s complicated” huh?

Still... emotions are dangerous y’know?

Can you really say that that emotional bond doesn’t complete you in a way?

[It’s not judging at all. He’s rather curious. After all, he only has the way they act together to go off of. But it seems very clear. But then— isn’t it always clearer from the outside?]

[preconstruction]

It does.

[ he'd told rebecca that hank was his home. he couldn't deny that, but: ]

It's very dangerous. I feel so strongly about Han that it scares me. But if he asked me never to see Hank, I don't know what I'd do.

[ and if hank asked him never to see han? well. that was less of a hypothetical. ]

Humans make things very complicated, Lucian. Don't get involved with them this way.

[preconstruction]

That hasn't worked so far.

[preconstruction]

People need to know what they're up against.

[donotlick]

[ Hank grimaces. ]

I'll just have to try harder.

[ He doesn't... he doesn't want to. ]

You know what? Fuck it.

[ Hank holds out his hand. He doesn't have anything hide from Connor. He'd never want to. ]

Talking is just getting us going around in circles.

[preconstruction]

Are you certain that's a good idea?

[ given how intense both of them were about this...maybe it would just hurt them. ]

[supportrole]

[ To be perfectly fair, Mishima doesn't exactly have high standards or a lot of strong opinions when it comes to food, so it's pretty easy to keep things out of the "miss" column for him, whether they're legitimate hits or not. But if his evaluation makes Yoosung happy, the details probably don't really matter!

He'll just take a little bit of chocolate drizzle on this one, since the chestnut flavor is kind of subtle already and he doesn't want to mask it too much. He'll go all out with it whenever he tries a strawberry one, though.

It's definitely different having breakfast crepes on a plate with a fork like this, compared to the fancy rolled-up ones you get at stands and carry around. But the flavor is similar, and it's obviously warm and fresh! ]

Mm-- Yeah, it is!

[ Sure, the filling could stand to be a little creamier, but he won't complain. ]

You want to try it and see how it turned out?

[ Cuts off a little piece and holds out fork? ]

[starswink]

Then... I hope that's the case! Kurusu is still alive, he should know as much as I do when it comes to them. If we can tell them what to ask about then it could be useful. We should figure that out and then form a plan...

[Oh, but Yoosung's getting ahead of himself.]

... If Vivi says it'll work, hehe.

[starswink]

Hehe. I put the soda in the cake! I'm glad my experiment turned out well.

[Mishima hasn't minded any of his cooking experiments in the past so he felt bold enough to try them even for his birthday. If nothing else he figured the result would be lively. This cake turned out to be pretty crumbly, and the food coloring might rub off on your tongue. Yoosung's satisfied enough with his one slice.]

[childrenofinvention]

Haha— Humans have a way of making anything complicated. “Simple” doesn’t really suit them. But who says that’s a bad thing? I personally enjoy things a little messy.

They can adapt to a lot of complicated situations. Heck. Some of them choose to live like that.

Can you really say that Han wouldn’t accept your feelings... all of them not just the ones you have for him?