[It is a distraction, but it's a little more than that. Yoosung has always felt better when he's able to help someone - it's why he genuinely loved volunteering, why his fight with Mitarai made him sob, why he died with so many regrets when this end had been so genuinely useless. Even knowing what Grantaire was using his death for might have made him feel a little better, at this rate, but he doesn't even have that to go off of. He feels so small, knowing that most likely, even all the torture he was enduring would have gone to waste now that he's gone and Saeran would be bored. There's nothing of value left in Yoosung's life... so why wouldn't he care about someone else's problems more than his own? Honestly, it just feels really nice that he actually listens to his advice. That they can have hot chocolate together and not be in pain. It's more than he deserves, being such a failure at everything. Having the freedom to think about someone else's problems instead of his own is actually something he could consider a privilege in retrospect.
But maybe that's exactly how Mishima felt too, being in this hell of a school where everyone knew and they ignored it. It's really even worse.... Yoosung was tortured as a willing sacrifice, but a small part of him still knows that someone would probably help him if he dared to risk crying out. He was never truly alone, since his heart was full of love. It wasn't so bad by the end. He was "happy." Coming to Fayflower just made him forget that. But if he can get rid of his regrets, he can finally get on with accepting his death. The fact that it happened already seems like the best thing for now, since he's got nothing to go back to. Mishima has his better life thanks to the Phantom Thieves, and that's much better.]
Yeah, I can imagine. It must have looked like there was no escape before they showed up. Though, I guess you at least would have graduated eventually...
[The "at least" almost makes it sound like it's in comparison to something. He doesn't notice that he let that slip though. Really, though, Mishima's not wrong to think that it's strange Yoosung isn't talking about himself. It's definitely very strange.]
cw brief torture mention
But maybe that's exactly how Mishima felt too, being in this hell of a school where everyone knew and they ignored it. It's really even worse.... Yoosung was tortured as a willing sacrifice, but a small part of him still knows that someone would probably help him if he dared to risk crying out. He was never truly alone, since his heart was full of love. It wasn't so bad by the end. He was "happy." Coming to Fayflower just made him forget that. But if he can get rid of his regrets, he can finally get on with accepting his death. The fact that it happened already seems like the best thing for now, since he's got nothing to go back to. Mishima has his better life thanks to the Phantom Thieves, and that's much better.]
Yeah, I can imagine. It must have looked like there was no escape before they showed up. Though, I guess you at least would have graduated eventually...
[The "at least" almost makes it sound like it's in comparison to something. He doesn't notice that he let that slip though. Really, though, Mishima's not wrong to think that it's strange Yoosung isn't talking about himself. It's definitely very strange.]