[Mitarai feels like the motion sensitive lights just came on, and he freezes like a deer. He'd intended to allude to his role, and he still doesn't know that Mishima met Waver, but Mitarai can definitely tell that he crossed a line with this empathy for culprits thing. Which makes sense, if Mishima has a strong sense of justice. Once in a simpler time Mitarai wrote in his diary that Grantaire was a radical extremist definitely below the Future Foundation's level, and he recoiled from voting for an innocent person just so Grantaire could instead survive and get the bribe. His gut feeling is still that Grantaire appeared to be much less desperate and sympathetic. Mitarai just can't harp on it now when he's struck out on his own, even more radical.
Because in many ways Mitarai's true motive was to turn things around in the killing game where he felt destined to be the stepping stone of the strong, the less cynical souls, who would "move on" from the tragedy. All his prosocial urges now hang on the slim hope that someone is kinder than the paranoid impression of the world Mitarai has mentally trapped himself in. Foremost, Yoosung - particularly because despite his awareness from Kurusu of some older man's involvement, Mitarai had no idea that Yoosung had literally considered that person the true culprit and therefore never once gone out to bat for a true culprit. Second most, Mishima, based on the incredibly flimsy reasoning that Yoosung and Mishima were friends. And even if Mitarai can hope that Yoosung didn't reject his entire self, he certainly repudiated his motive, his difficulty reflecting on that motive. There's an extremely high risk Mishima will feel similarly; Mitarai doesn't dare to hope that a fellow survivor of long-term bullying (still speculation at this point) will see more merit in destroying humanity.
So Mitarai just looks upset for a couple seconds and then croaks out.]
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Because in many ways Mitarai's true motive was to turn things around in the killing game where he felt destined to be the stepping stone of the strong, the less cynical souls, who would "move on" from the tragedy. All his prosocial urges now hang on the slim hope that someone is kinder than the paranoid impression of the world Mitarai has mentally trapped himself in. Foremost, Yoosung - particularly because despite his awareness from Kurusu of some older man's involvement, Mitarai had no idea that Yoosung had literally considered that person the true culprit and therefore never once gone out to bat for a true culprit. Second most, Mishima, based on the incredibly flimsy reasoning that Yoosung and Mishima were friends. And even if Mitarai can hope that Yoosung didn't reject his entire self, he certainly repudiated his motive, his difficulty reflecting on that motive. There's an extremely high risk Mishima will feel similarly; Mitarai doesn't dare to hope that a fellow survivor of long-term bullying (still speculation at this point) will see more merit in destroying humanity.
So Mitarai just looks upset for a couple seconds and then croaks out.]
Something really stupid...