[In his rush to confess all that to someone, anyone, Mitarai didn't think about how confusing the terms would be to someone who'd never read his profile - or maybe he was grateful for that gap. If someone had experienced the terror of Enoshima Junko firsthand, how could he ever do anything but run away from their disappointment that he enabled her... Amami only had the vaguest impression of Monokuma, and he certainly wasn't impressed.
Mitarai is mostly just relieved - he's wracked with tension Mishima would probably find relatable, waiting the whole time for the other shoe to drop and slap him across the face. When Mishima has drawn his conclusion.]
Waver Velvet-san certainly does not forgive me. [Oh, god, Mishima already knows his name - it's a delayed reaction because he recognizes Velvet less - that's actually really bad.] That was clear when we spoke. I can't immediately make amends with him as a person... [Which does make him feel all guilty like Waver wanted!!! But as for Mishima!!!] I know that being forgiven by anyone... is an impossible dream. Only a brainwashed person [for the record, in his head this includes Gogol] would ever forgive me... and that's not something I'll do anymore. [It's not like he has a finished anime to brainwash someone with. He does have a one-track mind and always finds his attention wandering to the possibility of making another anime as soon as possible. But he is at least trying to sort out his priorities, here, and also follow his principles of free will. Mitarai isn't clear on how much Mishima understands that desire to take away free will in the context of an imagined greater good. He doesn't know the precise reason Mishima thought that volunteering man's death would help everyone, and he's not going to pry and get Mishima down. Mitarai is just grateful that he expresses understanding at all.]
Thank you very much for hearing my point of view, Mishima-kun. Many people see me as - off the deep end, beyond their reach. [They always have, really.] If you can acknowledge my good intentions enough to let me help your cause in any way, I would be sincerely appreciative.
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Mitarai is mostly just relieved - he's wracked with tension Mishima would probably find relatable, waiting the whole time for the other shoe to drop and slap him across the face. When Mishima has drawn his conclusion.]
Waver Velvet-san certainly does not forgive me. [Oh, god, Mishima already knows his name - it's a delayed reaction because he recognizes Velvet less - that's actually really bad.] That was clear when we spoke. I can't immediately make amends with him as a person... [Which does make him feel all guilty like Waver wanted!!! But as for Mishima!!!] I know that being forgiven by anyone... is an impossible dream. Only a brainwashed person [for the record, in his head this includes Gogol] would ever forgive me... and that's not something I'll do anymore. [It's not like he has a finished anime to brainwash someone with. He does have a one-track mind and always finds his attention wandering to the possibility of making another anime as soon as possible. But he is at least trying to sort out his priorities, here, and also follow his principles of free will. Mitarai isn't clear on how much Mishima understands that desire to take away free will in the context of an imagined greater good. He doesn't know the precise reason Mishima thought that volunteering man's death would help everyone, and he's not going to pry and get Mishima down. Mitarai is just grateful that he expresses understanding at all.]
Thank you very much for hearing my point of view, Mishima-kun. Many people see me as - off the deep end, beyond their reach. [They always have, really.] If you can acknowledge my good intentions enough to let me help your cause in any way, I would be sincerely appreciative.