R1 DEADLAND

[lockdownmods]

[it’s strange, for the people who were already dead, the shift in scenery is sudden and complete. For those who have just arrived? It’s like you’re back where you left?

How strange.

But if you ever need her, you can always reach out to the guardian of this place.]

LOCATIONS
Note: locations lag a week behind the living counterparts

Comments

[lovedanime]

[In his rush to confess all that to someone, anyone, Mitarai didn't think about how confusing the terms would be to someone who'd never read his profile - or maybe he was grateful for that gap. If someone had experienced the terror of Enoshima Junko firsthand, how could he ever do anything but run away from their disappointment that he enabled her... Amami only had the vaguest impression of Monokuma, and he certainly wasn't impressed.

Mitarai is mostly just relieved - he's wracked with tension Mishima would probably find relatable, waiting the whole time for the other shoe to drop and slap him across the face. When Mishima has drawn his conclusion.]

Waver Velvet-san certainly does not forgive me. [Oh, god, Mishima already knows his name - it's a delayed reaction because he recognizes Velvet less - that's actually really bad.] That was clear when we spoke. I can't immediately make amends with him as a person... [Which does make him feel all guilty like Waver wanted!!! But as for Mishima!!!] I know that being forgiven by anyone... is an impossible dream. Only a brainwashed person [for the record, in his head this includes Gogol] would ever forgive me... and that's not something I'll do anymore. [It's not like he has a finished anime to brainwash someone with. He does have a one-track mind and always finds his attention wandering to the possibility of making another anime as soon as possible. But he is at least trying to sort out his priorities, here, and also follow his principles of free will. Mitarai isn't clear on how much Mishima understands that desire to take away free will in the context of an imagined greater good. He doesn't know the precise reason Mishima thought that volunteering man's death would help everyone, and he's not going to pry and get Mishima down. Mitarai is just grateful that he expresses understanding at all.]

Thank you very much for hearing my point of view, Mishima-kun. Many people see me as - off the deep end, beyond their reach. [They always have, really.] If you can acknowledge my good intentions enough to let me help your cause in any way, I would be sincerely appreciative.

[supportrole]

[ Mishima still isn't sure what to make of all this, but he nods. ]

Y-yeah, you're welcome.

[ As for the rest of it... If there comes a time where they can use Mitarai's help and he offers it, it's not like he's going to turn him away. But he's also not going to make any guarantees about working together or anything, or reassure him that everyone else's evaluations of him must thave been wrong -- they all knew him a lot longer than the five minutes Mishima's had with him.

That said... ]

You know, you don't necessarily need someone else to reach you. People can change their own hearts if they want to.

[ At least that's what Kurusu told him he would do someday. ]

You already know that you were headed down the wrong path, so I'm pretty sure you can figure out how to find the right one.

[lovedanime]

[At first, Mitarai looks deeply uncomfortable, because he feels very strongly that changing one's own heart is not a cut and dry endeavor like getting out of bed on the other side in the morning. This is exactly like the reaction he had to suppress all that time ago, which makes sense given the actual source. But just before Mitarai can make that connection, Mishima elaborates - he's confident in Mitarai individually to reason his way forward. And that's a faith Mitarai felt like nobody ever had in him. So he's sitting there with his mouth hanging open for a moment.]

That's high praise...

[He's really not used to anyone liking him for himself. Gogol was the last time he felt like that happened, and when the acknowledgment comes from someone in Mishima's situation, he really wonders if Gogol was on the right track about the destiny of broken people. On the bright side, that has no bearing on the righteous deeds they all have the potential to enact. Mitarai blinks a bit, and his high voice picks up again.]

In that case, I shouldn't hold you back any longer. Mishima-kun, it was really nice getting the chance to speak with you.