[It's a little bit of a relief to hear Rebecca say that. That she can understand a little bit why he'd tell Maya about Osomatsu's feelings. A little smile makes way onto his face and he ends up turning his head to bury it behind his knees to hide it, quiet for a few moments himself as he thinks of a proper reply. Well... first of all:]

Thank you.

[It's a little bit muffled but he does mean it genuinely. It's reassuring to be told that she understands him if even a little, tiny bit. Maybe he's actually doing something right in this shitty simulation if Rebecca can see where he's coming from... if even a little, tiny bit.]

I mean I really.... I really can't believe I was capable of doing somethin' so horrible in the first place.

[He tightens his arms around his legs, thinking about the images of that knife stabbing into her over, and over, and over. Her mouthing the word "Why?" as the light drained from her eyes. By that point it was too late to take anything back.. but he wish he would have. He could have stopped and gotten her helped. Admitted to what he'd done and promised to never do it again. Maybe things would have been different. Maybe he could have made a difference, somehow. Maybe he could have... made it back home.]

I know it sounds like a lie comin' from me but... it's scary, Miss Gales. It's really scary. I always thought that I was better than Murdoc, and it kept me goin' despite all the horrid shit he put me through but I proved to myself that I'm capable of being just like him... no, worse. And now that we've got a second chance I'm.. I'm just trying to prove to myself that that's not true.

[But it is true, isn't it?]