R1 DEADLAND

[lockdownmods]

[it’s strange, for the people who were already dead, the shift in scenery is sudden and complete. For those who have just arrived? It’s like you’re back where you left?

How strange.

But if you ever need her, you can always reach out to the guardian of this place.]

LOCATIONS
Note: locations lag a week behind the living counterparts

Comments

[newhire]

Rebecca is... she's a strong woman. She doesn't forgive easily-- but that's because I think she has a lot of heart.

If you keep trying and don't give up, I know that what you want to convey will come across.

It may not happen right away, but... I'll help you until you can!

[12d3]

[2-D listens to Vivienne explain, and he gives her a little nod. He knows she'll.. probably not likely ever forgive him, and he's not exactly looking for forgiveness in the first place. But being told to not give up and that it might happen.. does give him some home.

A little bit of hope.]

Thank you, Miss Vivienne. You're really sweet.

[He gives her another smile.]

And uh.. thank you for making us computer bodies too, by the way.

[newhire]

O-oh I don't know about that... I'm just doing what I can to make up for my own mistakes too.

So-- let's work this out together!

First off... you call her Miss Gales?

[For the greeting. Because you know. Letters have Greetings, right?]

[12d3]

Oh uh.. yeah. 'Cos she's a teacher and all.

[It's Polite(tm).]

It feels weird callin' her Rebecca even though she's younger than me.

[newhire]

Okay so--

Miss Gales...

[That's a start!]

Why... don't we start with you're sorry. And then... that you miss her.

[Okay but how to do that.]

...okay. Try telling me what you'd like to say to her... if you could right now.

[12d3]

Uhm... alright. It's kind of a lot, so I hope you don't mind listenin' to me ramble a little bit.

[2-D takes a deep breath, closing his eyes for a moment as he thinks.]

Miss Gales... I'm sorry for.. No, that's a rubbish start. Sorry for what? Killing a young girl? As if saying "sorry" will magically make it better?

[He sighs, a little frustrated but starts over.]

There's a lot of stuff I want to say, but I don't know where to start. I want to tell you that.. that I miss you, but I know that's probably the last thing you want to hear from me. But it's the truth. I.. I miss drinkin' tea with you, and-- and there's so much stuff we never got to tell each other. I wanted to hear more about your friends and your job.. what's being a teacher like? Is it fun? It sounds like it'd be a blast and--- Oh, I'm getting off topic.

[The musican shakes his head, sitting up a bit more to try and focus.]

I wanted to apologize 'cos of what I did, but mostly 'cos of what I said. The last thing I told you was... stupid. I wasn't thinking and I know I usually say a lot of stupid stuff but I can't stop thinking about it. I.. I didn't mean to make you feel like I took away such a bright, and caring life just 'cos I wanted to talk to you again. It's not your fault, and even though that was something on my mind it wasn't... i-it didn't make me do it. I just felt so useless when you were in so much pain over Ash's jacket and all I could do was sit there like a bloody dumbass. I wanted to help you better than I did and it hurt. A lot. To just sit there helplessly while you cried.

But it wasn't why I did such a horrid thing... I'll admit that you're really important to me, and I.. kind of took a liking to you but I didn't do it for you. You had nothin' to do with it. I was just an idiot, and a coward, and I was scared someone else was gonna take my place in Gorillaz. And I was gonna end up a useless, deaf moron livin' on the streets with nothing to do with myself anymore. I didn't want to lose music.. 'cos it's all I really have.

But it wasn't fair for me to take it out on poor Maya or on anyone else but myself, for that matter. And now that I've been given a second chance I'm trying to do all that I can to make it up to her. And to you. And Osomatsu. And.. everyone. And I'm so sorry that I did such an awful, terrible thing. I truly didn't know what I was doing.. and I'm.. I'm scared.

[...without realizing it, his eyes have started to glaze over with tears. His voice trembling a little bit.]

I'm scared of myself, Rebecca. I don't.. I don't want to become like Murdoc. I don't want to be like someone who-- wh-who ran me over with a car and laughed about it! I-I want to be a good person.. I...

[newhire]

[As he talks, Vivienne gently writes. She writes the very words that he says to her as he says them. Well-- without certain speech ticks but... organically, word for word. To her this seems like the best thing she can do for him.

But listening... she really feels for him.]

"I'm going to give it my all."

[That's how she finishes it for him, with a sharp nod. And then, to him and him alone, she adds--]

I know it might be different, but-- you have a place here too.

[12d3]

[2-D looks up when Vivienne says that, snot running down his chin and a look of hesitance on his face. "You have a place here too...."]

...I do?

[newhire]

Of course you do.

...the people who started this horrible program may have designed it with nothing but nasty, terrible intentions...

But that doesn't mean that only nasty, terrible things can come out of it. They can control this school and this program. But they can't control you, no matter how much they like to pretend that they can. They've done their worst, but you're still here. And where you go from here... that's entirely up to you. There's nothing they can say or do about that.

You have a good heart. And you're not alone.

[12d3]

[That... that's honestly probably the nicest thing 2-D has ever heard from anyone. Even after remembering fourteen years he'd forgotten-- no one in his life has ever said anything like that. "You have a good heart. And you're not alone."

He's so used to be called useless, faceache, pain in someone's side, annoying, ugly, stupid, better off dead, the family housecat.. all sorts of awful things, even by Noodle who was the closest person to him at the time that he just. He's not sure how to react to something so sweet? Something so.. positive and hopeful.

So he just kind of stares at Vivienne with the look of a lost child, almost, his lip trembling a little bit as more tears fall down his cheeks.]

Th..thank.. thank you.

[That's all he manages to choke out.]