R1 DEADLAND

[lockdownmods]

[it’s strange, for the people who were already dead, the shift in scenery is sudden and complete. For those who have just arrived? It’s like you’re back where you left?

How strange.

But if you ever need her, you can always reach out to the guardian of this place.]

LOCATIONS
Note: locations lag a week behind the living counterparts

Comments

[preconstruction]

He's not you.

[ this is a point he's absolutely certain on, and his voice doesn't leave a lot of room for doubt. ]

You never would have hurt me like that.

[foo_bar]

No, I wouldn't have.

Fuck-- [he glitches for a minute and then turns to face him.]

That was the actual worst moment of my life. Not anything that happened after or before.

[he says it sincerely]

[preconstruction]

[ oh. he can feel his metaphorical heart breaking just from the way han looks at him alone, nevermind what he says. ]

I'm so sorry. I promised you I wouldn't leave you alone, and then I --

[foo_bar]

No, I just-- you know.

Fuck that guy. [he says emphatically]

It wasn't your fault. Don't apologize like it was.

[preconstruction]

I know that even if we know that -- that a person might come back, that it can still be hurtful to lose someone. And especially since -- since you've lost people, before.

[ it was bad. what han had to see was bad. ]

[foo_bar]

That--

[he doesn't know what to say next, but he knows he wants to reassure Connor, somehow. He'd say he was fine but, well. He's still working through that. They're still working through that.]

Thank you, but I still don't want you to feel responsible for what he did.

[preconstruction]

I can still be sympathetic. And I can still wish that I'd been better.

[ maybe if he'd used the exit in his program instead of talking to hanthaniel like a fool...]

[foo_bar]

[Been better...? He admittedly stumbles over that one. Even though he smiles a bit at the rest]

I appreciate the sympathy, but isn't that the opposite of not feeling responsible?

[it's gentle the way he says it]

[preconstruction]

Yeah, I guess so.

[ han has a point unfortunately!! ]

[foo_bar]

[IT'S NICE TO KNOW EVEN CONNOR AGREES. no matter how reluctantly.

he presses a quick kiss to his cheek.]

Glad you agree.

[preconstruction]

[ oh no in public and everything he blushes because that’s so cute. ]

Oh, Han — I had a dream.

[foo_bar]

[his eyes brighten and Hanthaniel is completely forgotten]

Did you really? Well, what was it about?

[preconstruction]

I was in a big, open field. There were flowers among the grass. It was very peaceful.

[foo_bar]

That is s-s-such a good dream.

[he is genuinely happy to hear this? and even kisses his cheek again to show it]

[preconstruction]

[ all this physical affection!!! It’s clear how much he loves it. ]

It was. It was very calming. I felt like I could do anything and there was no urgency.

[foo_bar]

[physical affection is his favorite-- and now he doesn't have to hide.]

I'm glad you finally get to experience one-- and it's a good one.

[preconstruction]

I’m glad too. I tried sleeping because you had asked me about it. I’ve been...I’ve been trying new things, here. For everyone else it must be so strange for them, but I think being in a simulation instead of my own body gives my data a chance to pretend a little and simulate more organic things.