deadtention | R1 DEADLAND

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round 1

R1 DEADLAND

[it’s strange, for the people who were already dead, the shift in scenery is sudden and complete. For those who have just arrived? It’s like you’re back where you left?

How strange.

But if you ever need her, you can always reach out to the guardian of this place.]

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That's what I told the others during the seance. I figure that way when people arrive, they'll have some context.

[ that was not really an answer but it makes sense in his mind?? ]

Well, it's creative.

[he sounds slightly uncomfortable, but that was always going to be an uncomfortable thing to face.]

If it's any consolation, another model from my line kidnapped Hank and held him at gunpoint.

[ hence being surprisingly chill with this whole matching faces thing. ]

[HIS ANDROID BOYFRIEND HAS LIVED A LIFE.]

I can see why, then, this wouldn't faze you at all.

Hank shot it front of me.

[ very matter-of-factly. ]

But that other machine wasn't me. It had my memories and my model likeness, but it was a different android that made different choices.

And that is what you think happened here too.

[he has to admit, sotto]

Honestly, the evil twin thing is possible too.

[and less difficult to grasp]

Actually, that's not what I think happened here.

[ he's cautious, though, because literally every time he's tried to tell han what he thinks about this place han has told him he wasn't right. but what the heck. ]

I think you were brought here like the rest of us are. That's why you lost your memories. I think this is a version of this story where that man had a hard life and made bad choices. And that you got pulled into this the same as everyone else as if you were from another one. A better one.

[ which makes sense because: ]

Hank and I are from different stories. I didn't die in his. Neither did Markus. Everyone survived.

[he looks at him as he explains, and... well, he doesn't say anything. he doesn't counter that-- because he doesn't know.]

... That's possible.

[everything's possible.]

Technically, anything is possible.

[ so he just sighs. one day he'll learn to just keep things to himself. ]

Either way, the point is -- he's obviously even and he's not you and that's all I really need to know.

[he looks a little apologetic at that, sensing he's annoyed him]

Sorry.

It's just a lot, and I can't consider it with the same nonchalance. It's... hard to wrap my head around, that I would want myself dead so badly.

He's not you.

[ this is a point he's absolutely certain on, and his voice doesn't leave a lot of room for doubt. ]

You never would have hurt me like that.

No, I wouldn't have.

Fuck-- [he glitches for a minute and then turns to face him.]

That was the actual worst moment of my life. Not anything that happened after or before.

[he says it sincerely]

[ oh. he can feel his metaphorical heart breaking just from the way han looks at him alone, nevermind what he says. ]

I'm so sorry. I promised you I wouldn't leave you alone, and then I --

No, I just-- you know.

Fuck that guy. [he says emphatically]

It wasn't your fault. Don't apologize like it was.

I know that even if we know that -- that a person might come back, that it can still be hurtful to lose someone. And especially since -- since you've lost people, before.

[ it was bad. what han had to see was bad. ]

That--

[he doesn't know what to say next, but he knows he wants to reassure Connor, somehow. He'd say he was fine but, well. He's still working through that. They're still working through that.]

Thank you, but I still don't want you to feel responsible for what he did.

I can still be sympathetic. And I can still wish that I'd been better.

[ maybe if he'd used the exit in his program instead of talking to hanthaniel like a fool...]

[Been better...? He admittedly stumbles over that one. Even though he smiles a bit at the rest]

I appreciate the sympathy, but isn't that the opposite of not feeling responsible?

[it's gentle the way he says it]

Yeah, I guess so.

[ han has a point unfortunately!! ]

[IT'S NICE TO KNOW EVEN CONNOR AGREES. no matter how reluctantly.

he presses a quick kiss to his cheek.]

Glad you agree.

[ oh no in public and everything he blushes because that’s so cute. ]

Oh, Han — I had a dream.

[his eyes brighten and Hanthaniel is completely forgotten]

Did you really? Well, what was it about?

I was in a big, open field. There were flowers among the grass. It was very peaceful.

That is s-s-such a good dream.

[he is genuinely happy to hear this? and even kisses his cheek again to show it]

[ all this physical affection!!! It’s clear how much he loves it. ]

It was. It was very calming. I felt like I could do anything and there was no urgency.

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