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deadtention2018-09-23 08:57 am
lockdownmods) wrote in deadtention2018-09-23 08:57 am
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R1 DEADLAND PT2: ELECTRIC BOOGALOO
[it’s strange, for the people who were already dead, the shift in scenery is sudden and complete. For those who have just arrived? It’s like you’re back where you left?
How strange.
But if you ever need her, you can always reach out to the guardian of this place.]
LOCATIONS
Note: locations lag a week behind the living counterparts
How strange.
But if you ever need her, you can always reach out to the guardian of this place.]
Note: locations lag a week behind the living counterparts
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Do you actually think this is funny?
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[He asked for literally one thing and he can’t seem to get it.]
That’s why it’s funny.
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Yeah, I guess it is "hilariously" tragic how everyone keeps doing just what the administration want.
[Without knowing anything about the situation, that's all he could say about it... but he kinda doubts anyone else is going to ask.]
What the hell did they promise this time?
cw: suicidal ideation
[He grins and relaxes his shoulders.]
Something about saving a person. I thought it'd be a win-win scenario, either way.
[That clearly didn't work out.]
abuse mention
[Yoosung has never heard of this quote, and he bristles to think of it in reverse. Of course laughing at someone else's sadness, such as Tess's, is despicable. He wants to believe that he would never understand the possibility of looking enough to turn into that. But Yoosung has been trapped in a long, sad story before. It flickers on his face, the recognition of learning how to feel good in a world of pain. So maybe the quote is right after all. But that doesn't mean he'll accept it so easily coming from a friend's killer, who apparently tried to drag her (maybe more friends on top of that) into something that was possibly even more about suicide than it would be about saving someone. Even if... even if that was also really, really relatable, when he was only alive now because of the costs he'd pay if he hadn't stayed alive and entertaining. But the clown was someone everyone surprised it even took him this long to kill anyone, weren't they? So how can he believe it's the same....... He squints at him hard.]
Y-You're not the only one in this story. Two for one isn't fair and you know it... How long did you really look?
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[He's been looking all twenty something of those years of his.]
Tell me, when a play goes wrong, would you rather cry because it's ruined, or laugh at the disaster?
[In a life full of misery, at some point the only reaction you can have is to step back and laugh at it, for your own sake. Sometimes that applied to the misery of others' too, but in the end everyone shares the same miserable situation. It's just that Gogol's part is of the fool, who knows the story is staged, able to see the curtain and audience, unable to leave or integrate with the other characters. When he points an laughs, it's a disruption, and no one else can see where he's coming from.]
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[It's not really much of an answer, though, so he certainly won't even think about accepting it as a justification.
He's friends with an actor enough to know that if you mess up in a play you're not technically supposed to do either of those things. But... it's not like he totally missed what they were actually talking about.]
I would cry if I had to.
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[It's as simple as that, really. Not in just the difference of their personalities, but in the if. As if such a thing could be opted out of, as if there was really any other option.]
I can't imagine you'd be able to understand.
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[Yoosung called it a two for one, but the truth of it for Gogol was that it was a two for two. If it’s in the interest of fairness, the scales were skewed against him. He carried this burden of knowledge, bodies weighing down his soul, whereas others could be content with their captivity until their liberation.]
Whoever promised you it should be?
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You called it a "win-win situation." You can't say that unless it's good for everyone involved! Tess wasn't like Holmes! And you... I don't even think you were really trying to get away with it...
What the hell was the point? All you're doing is prolonging the suffering and doing exactly what the others expected you to. [he scoffs, suddenly remembering the called bluff over the pancakes.] I didn't think you were that bad before I died. So much for a duty to surprise and entertain.
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What was the point?
[He's been asking himself that since he got here. It was always good to return to the start.]
I wanted freedom. For myself, and, in the end, for everyone else. Every human life is sinful, he knew, and together...together we'd break down the prison walls that keeps them all trapped.
[Dostoyevsky had made good on his promise, his plan, to Gogol at least. There was little betrayal there, personally. It had been perfect, truly. Then all of this got in the way.]
I tried to end suffering, and caused more of it. Unhappiness for happiness. They're no different from comedy and tragedy, aren't they?